What is a hypochondriac you ask?
Yes I’m sure everyone has those moments where they feel a weird pain and they google it and WebMD says that they’re probably dying.
But imagine thinking that EVERY single day.
I have severe asthma and allergies. I am constantly struggling to breathe and it’s a pain in the ass.
I have been to SO MANY doctors. SO MANY. And it doesn’t matter how much I go I believe there is something worse than what they are finding. So here’s an example of this.
The other day my mom took me to urgent care because I had a boarder line sinus infection and I was coughing terribly and no medicine worked. NOTHING.
Doctor: Your lungs sound fine, I don’t hear weezing. Your oxygen levels are perfect.
Me: Then why am I having trouble breathing?
Doctor: Your breathing may be irritated by what ever is triggering your allergy. But I promise you your breathing is fine.
Doctor: If your oxygen was lower I would send you to the ER. And if it gets worse I would suggest going to the ER.
Me thinking: ER? I MIGHT HAVE TO GO TO THE ER? WHAT IF THIS MEDICINE DOESNT WORK LIKE EVERYTHING ELSE? WHAT IF I HAVE TO GO TO THE ER? WHAT ARE THEY GOING TO DO?
Doctor: Just take this medicine and rest and you should be fine.
And anytime there is a small glitch in my breathing or my body. I freak the fuck out. And I give myself anxiety which makes whatever I’m dealing with worse.
I know I drive my mom crazy because I’m constantly asking what’s wrong with me. When there actually isn’t anything wrong.
And reading this you’re probably like: “Can’t you just belive the doctor? They’re trained professionals. They know what they’re talking about.”
I do believe the doctors. But I just feel like they are missing something. It’s really hard to not think of the worst possible conclusion when it comes to my health.
I have been around people that have been extremely ill. And that triggered me to become a hypochondriac.
I was never a hypochondriac until about 3-4 years ago.
This shows how much traumatic events can change you.
And people belive that you need to just “get over it” or “move on” and maybe you do. But it effects your brain.
Since people can’t see your mental illness they don’t believe it’s there. But it is.
That’s like saying “Oh I can’t see the air therefore it doesn’t exist” which makes no sense. It’s kind of the same analogy.
I hope you learned something new from this post.
If not you can always do more research. It’s hard to explain to someone that doesn’t have it.