Feeling alone is probably one of the worst feelings in the world.
There are different kinds of this feeling;
Most feel lonely even in a room of people.
Then there’s the people who are actually lonely. The ones that have maybe 1-2 people to talk to.
When you aren’t doing anything in your life you tend to feel alone and useless.
Not having a job has done that to me. My job was one way to get out of the house and socialize. I got my first boyfriend through my job, even though it didn’t work out.
I also had co-workers that made my day and I told everything to.
Now, I am stuck at home most of the time. Nothing to do, and stuck in my thoughts. Most of my friends left for big colleges while I’m only going to a small one.
They also kind of forgot about my existence when they left, but it’s whatever.
They are meeting new people every day and in a way I’m jealous.
I love helping people, going new places and being productive. Yes some days I love sitting around curled up playing video games and eating icecream.
But that can only be fun for so long.
I clean the house, decorate, make videos take pictures.
But that gets old and sometimes I want more people to share my day with.